#project2020

Here we are at the end of another year.   We are quickly approaching the 3 year anniversary of John’s death, and my next chapter in life.  Not only will it be year 3 of widow-hood, but I am dangerously close to turning 40.  FORTY!  eek.   To say that my life is quite different at 39.875 than I had imagined is an understatement.   I’m not sure why, but this year, I feel compelled to set some goals.  Call them life goals I suppose, I just know it won’t be a New Years Resolution!

In spending some time chatting with the bestie (for a solid 20 minutes, sans #mylittleboyfriends), I let it be known that I wanted to have some goals for 2020.  I don’t have a solid list composed just yet, but one of them is definitely to read more.   Specifically, read 6 books in 2020.  I also noted that maybe one should be that I shouldn’t procrastinate so much.  She immediately tossed that one out!  You guys….apparently I put on a real good show…. because I want to be organized about life, but whew, I sure wait til the last minute on ALL.  THE. THINGS!   Maybe I just work well under pressure, so it looks like I have my shit together???   I dunno….. at any rate, I will toss that one out, per her exclamation.

I’m not sure that I will share all the goals here, but maybe blogging a bit more often should be one of them.  There’s something about yelling to Alexa to turn on some music, and kicking back and getting life off my chest for a few.  Side note, who else treats Alexa like the jerk that cut you off on the road?   Just me?    Ok then.  While I really don’t know why I feel prompted to set some goals, I think it will be good for me.   We are required to set goals at work, even though the vast majority of our work is dictated by the top leaders of our company.  We have to be very selective about how things are worded and can be measured.   Perhaps because of that, I want to transition the goals to my real life, and thus be able to check them off the list WHEN I accomplish them.

I’m certain I will come up with some fundraising goals, which will be shared with the respective committees.  Having the first events under my belt has my mind swarming with ideas to put on a list for 2020.   I want the events to grow, and working with a better idea of costs and timing will hopefully allow both events to do just that.  Lessons learned from both events have been noted, both pros and cons and with any luck, we will improve things all around next Fall.

I am hoping that having set goals for the year will push me to be a better person.  I really don’t care who you are, I feel like everyone can find at least one thing to make them a better person.  It may be a being a better person on the outside through external actions, or it could be being a better person on the inside through self development.  Both can include diet and exercise, which are things I really need to get back on track after all this holiday food and dranks!  I want to use 2020 to give me a re-set and a clean slate for the years ahead.  (I mean, FORTY.   BLEH!).

I don’t know what my future holds but I know that moving forward I want to be intentional about the things that I do, or don’t do for that matter!  Life is crazy, crazy hard sometimes.  The only thing that I can do, is do the best that I can in setting and accomplishing goals in this giant work in progress.  2020 shall be a project… a project that follows what I called the “year of Stacie”. A project that will hopefully help me be the best friend, daughter, “aunt”, fundraiser, scheduler, brutally honest person that I can be!